Friday, November 7, 2008

Broken heart

I'M not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

THIS time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got my heart broken
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

DID it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

MY MIND is gone, i'm spinning round
remaining in our memories
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you

I'M broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Lost Mainstream

Your painting is messy
At this moment
I remember the fountain next to the white pigeons
The happiness has fallen down
Continue to pull the nameless
I love you
And you are singing intermittently
Pretend that nothing has happened
After the time passed away
Love is faced with choices
You are tired of the cold, I cried
Not a happy start
You use the card paper to write
Some just love to do this to the pain
How tired you are, where is the promised happiness
I don't wanna tell, the love is far short of a dream
Vaguely happy and unhappy at the number you give up
Those who loved the feeling is too deep
I still remember
You don't understand, where is the promised happiness
I was wrong, let the tears of regret gone away
Only memories of the Music Box are rotating
How to stop it
Your painting is messy
At this moment
I like the atmosphere of white pigeons
The happiness has fallen down
Continue to pull the nameless
I love you
And you are singing intermittently
Pretend that nothing has happened
After the time passed away
Love is faced with choices
You are tired of the cold, I cried
Not a happy start
You use the card paper to write
Some just love to do this to the pain
How tired you are, where is the promised happiness
I don't wanna tell, the love is far short of a dream
Vaguely happy and unhappy at the number you give up
Those who loved the feeling is too deep

How tired you are
Where is the promised happiness
I don't wanna tell
The love is far short of a dream
I still remember
You don't understand, where is the promised happiness
I was wrong, let the tears of regret gone away
Only memories of the Music Box are rotating
How to stop it

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Love flakes from you

I really wanna know why this year's life is so meaningless compare to last year's
was it because your appearance in my life making me feel so inlove and fun?
The truth really is , you really did coloured my life with rainbow giving me so much joy and comforts.. Maybe our fate has ended somehow I don know what should I do anymore other than wondering while hoping for your return.. Reymen , he broke wit his ex few years ago because of some kind of familiar obstacles but he got her back and treating her extremely good ..
Even himself , he thought their fates has ended "if we were meant to be , we will" .
Im just feeling a little bit envy over other people's love-bond , I asked myself many times "why ? why I'm so lonely now?" I was once a guy who never ever feels lonely untill the day i made my stupid dicision and you left me" Tons of tons of hurts and sadness falls right to my heart making me feeling heart broken , my heart is always broken now ..its hard to fill back my heart wit feelings and start a new relationship again .. after you , i'd 3 other exs , they all doesnt suit me at all , the moment they held my hand , I couldnt feel tat feeling you once gave me .. even when they're hugging me , the feeling is exactly the different and obviously i'm not wanting tat kind of feelings .. I never ever feel so tortured and suffered like this before , im with another girl but my heart is wit u , my mind , my soul , my love , they're all on you.
Everytime i goes to somewhere else we've once went and created happy moments before , I was feeling like my heart beat stops , my soul was gone , its like my mind has gone to the previous moment when we were still together , leaving my shell there wondering and wondering.
I doesnt wanna be alone like this , why everyone was looking at me like i couldnt change myself even how hard I tries? Loving someone we used to love is easier than loving someone we never loved before .. I doesnt want to try the same consequences anymore accepting others to my life , Puifun , it has been half year now after the day we broke up , can you feel my world?
I'm still waiting for your love flakes to drop over me.. I'll save them and create a whole heart again..

You were everything I wanted and you'll always be