Love flakes from you

I really wanna know why this year's life is so meaningless compare to last year's
was it because your appearance in my life making me feel so inlove and fun?
The truth really is , you really did coloured my life with rainbow giving me so much joy and comforts.. Maybe our fate has ended somehow I don know what should I do anymore other than wondering while hoping for your return.. Reymen , he broke wit his ex few years ago because of some kind of familiar obstacles but he got her back and treating her extremely good ..
Even himself , he thought their fates has ended "if we were meant to be , we will" .
Im just feeling a little bit envy over other people's love-bond , I asked myself many times "why ? why I'm so lonely now?" I was once a guy who never ever feels lonely untill the day i made my stupid dicision and you left me" Tons of tons of hurts and sadness falls right to my heart making me feeling heart broken , my heart is always broken now ..its hard to fill back my heart wit feelings and start a new relationship again .. after you , i'd 3 other exs , they all doesnt suit me at all , the moment they held my hand , I couldnt feel tat feeling you once gave me .. even when they're hugging me , the feeling is exactly the different and obviously i'm not wanting tat kind of feelings .. I never ever feel so tortured and suffered like this before , im with another girl but my heart is wit u , my mind , my soul , my love , they're all on you.
Everytime i goes to somewhere else we've once went and created happy moments before , I was feeling like my heart beat stops , my soul was gone , its like my mind has gone to the previous moment when we were still together , leaving my shell there wondering and wondering.
I doesnt wanna be alone like this , why everyone was looking at me like i couldnt change myself even how hard I tries? Loving someone we used to love is easier than loving someone we never loved before .. I doesnt want to try the same consequences anymore accepting others to my life , Puifun , it has been half year now after the day we broke up , can you feel my world?
I'm still waiting for your love flakes to drop over me.. I'll save them and create a whole heart again..

You were everything I wanted and you'll always be