I'M not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truely
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
THIS time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now i'm, in this condition
And i've, got my heart broken
But no matter what you'll never see me cry
DID it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should never let you hold me baby
Maybe why i'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart
MY MIND is gone, i'm spinning round
remaining in our memories
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
How did I get here with you, i'll never know
I never meant to let it get so, personal
After all I tried to do, stay away from loving you
I'M broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry
Friday, November 7, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Lost Mainstream
Your painting is messy
At this moment
I remember the fountain next to the white pigeons
The happiness has fallen down
Continue to pull the nameless
I love you
And you are singing intermittently
Pretend that nothing has happened
After the time passed away
Love is faced with choices
You are tired of the cold, I cried
Not a happy start
You use the card paper to write
Some just love to do this to the pain
How tired you are, where is the promised happiness
I don't wanna tell, the love is far short of a dream
Vaguely happy and unhappy at the number you give up
Those who loved the feeling is too deep
I still remember
You don't understand, where is the promised happiness
I was wrong, let the tears of regret gone away
Only memories of the Music Box are rotating
How to stop it
Your painting is messy
At this moment
I like the atmosphere of white pigeons
The happiness has fallen down
Continue to pull the nameless
I love you
And you are singing intermittently
Pretend that nothing has happened
After the time passed away
Love is faced with choices
You are tired of the cold, I cried
Not a happy start
You use the card paper to write
Some just love to do this to the pain
How tired you are, where is the promised happiness
I don't wanna tell, the love is far short of a dream
Vaguely happy and unhappy at the number you give up
Those who loved the feeling is too deep
How tired you are
Where is the promised happiness
I don't wanna tell
The love is far short of a dream
I still remember
You don't understand, where is the promised happiness
I was wrong, let the tears of regret gone away
Only memories of the Music Box are rotating
How to stop it
At this moment
I remember the fountain next to the white pigeons
The happiness has fallen down
Continue to pull the nameless
I love you
And you are singing intermittently
Pretend that nothing has happened
After the time passed away
Love is faced with choices
You are tired of the cold, I cried
Not a happy start
You use the card paper to write
Some just love to do this to the pain
How tired you are, where is the promised happiness
I don't wanna tell, the love is far short of a dream
Vaguely happy and unhappy at the number you give up
Those who loved the feeling is too deep
I still remember
You don't understand, where is the promised happiness
I was wrong, let the tears of regret gone away
Only memories of the Music Box are rotating
How to stop it
Your painting is messy
At this moment
I like the atmosphere of white pigeons
The happiness has fallen down
Continue to pull the nameless
I love you
And you are singing intermittently
Pretend that nothing has happened
After the time passed away
Love is faced with choices
You are tired of the cold, I cried
Not a happy start
You use the card paper to write
Some just love to do this to the pain
How tired you are, where is the promised happiness
I don't wanna tell, the love is far short of a dream
Vaguely happy and unhappy at the number you give up
Those who loved the feeling is too deep
How tired you are
Where is the promised happiness
I don't wanna tell
The love is far short of a dream
I still remember
You don't understand, where is the promised happiness
I was wrong, let the tears of regret gone away
Only memories of the Music Box are rotating
How to stop it
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Love flakes from you
I really wanna know why this year's life is so meaningless compare to last year's
was it because your appearance in my life making me feel so inlove and fun?
The truth really is , you really did coloured my life with rainbow giving me so much joy and comforts.. Maybe our fate has ended somehow I don know what should I do anymore other than wondering while hoping for your return.. Reymen , he broke wit his ex few years ago because of some kind of familiar obstacles but he got her back and treating her extremely good ..
Even himself , he thought their fates has ended "if we were meant to be , we will" .
Im just feeling a little bit envy over other people's love-bond , I asked myself many times "why ? why I'm so lonely now?" I was once a guy who never ever feels lonely untill the day i made my stupid dicision and you left me" Tons of tons of hurts and sadness falls right to my heart making me feeling heart broken , my heart is always broken now ..its hard to fill back my heart wit feelings and start a new relationship again .. after you , i'd 3 other exs , they all doesnt suit me at all , the moment they held my hand , I couldnt feel tat feeling you once gave me .. even when they're hugging me , the feeling is exactly the different and obviously i'm not wanting tat kind of feelings .. I never ever feel so tortured and suffered like this before , im with another girl but my heart is wit u , my mind , my soul , my love , they're all on you.
Everytime i goes to somewhere else we've once went and created happy moments before , I was feeling like my heart beat stops , my soul was gone , its like my mind has gone to the previous moment when we were still together , leaving my shell there wondering and wondering.
I doesnt wanna be alone like this , why everyone was looking at me like i couldnt change myself even how hard I tries? Loving someone we used to love is easier than loving someone we never loved before .. I doesnt want to try the same consequences anymore accepting others to my life , Puifun , it has been half year now after the day we broke up , can you feel my world?
I'm still waiting for your love flakes to drop over me.. I'll save them and create a whole heart again..
You were everything I wanted and you'll always be
was it because your appearance in my life making me feel so inlove and fun?
The truth really is , you really did coloured my life with rainbow giving me so much joy and comforts.. Maybe our fate has ended somehow I don know what should I do anymore other than wondering while hoping for your return.. Reymen , he broke wit his ex few years ago because of some kind of familiar obstacles but he got her back and treating her extremely good ..
Even himself , he thought their fates has ended "if we were meant to be , we will" .
Im just feeling a little bit envy over other people's love-bond , I asked myself many times "why ? why I'm so lonely now?" I was once a guy who never ever feels lonely untill the day i made my stupid dicision and you left me" Tons of tons of hurts and sadness falls right to my heart making me feeling heart broken , my heart is always broken now ..its hard to fill back my heart wit feelings and start a new relationship again .. after you , i'd 3 other exs , they all doesnt suit me at all , the moment they held my hand , I couldnt feel tat feeling you once gave me .. even when they're hugging me , the feeling is exactly the different and obviously i'm not wanting tat kind of feelings .. I never ever feel so tortured and suffered like this before , im with another girl but my heart is wit u , my mind , my soul , my love , they're all on you.
Everytime i goes to somewhere else we've once went and created happy moments before , I was feeling like my heart beat stops , my soul was gone , its like my mind has gone to the previous moment when we were still together , leaving my shell there wondering and wondering.
I doesnt wanna be alone like this , why everyone was looking at me like i couldnt change myself even how hard I tries? Loving someone we used to love is easier than loving someone we never loved before .. I doesnt want to try the same consequences anymore accepting others to my life , Puifun , it has been half year now after the day we broke up , can you feel my world?
I'm still waiting for your love flakes to drop over me.. I'll save them and create a whole heart again..
You were everything I wanted and you'll always be
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
My FKing Life
My life sucks , my family is messed up , god damn it .
1)Dad's hiding a mistress outside buying car and groceries for tat biitch , spending all his money on her .
2)Mom's gone crazy , gamble and drink every single fuking day , when she's drunk she'll fuking shout out real loud interrupting everyone including our neighbours , keep calling my dad's number and fuking shout on the phone cursing and saying all those stupid stuffs like hamkachan , diuniamahai and hope my dad fuk tat women till his dick fracture.
3)Dad's leaving and gonna stay with tat biitch .
1)Dad's hiding a mistress outside buying car and groceries for tat biitch , spending all his money on her .
2)Mom's gone crazy , gamble and drink every single fuking day , when she's drunk she'll fuking shout out real loud interrupting everyone including our neighbours , keep calling my dad's number and fuking shout on the phone cursing and saying all those stupid stuffs like hamkachan , diuniamahai and hope my dad fuk tat women till his dick fracture.
3)Dad's leaving and gonna stay with tat biitch .
Monday, October 13, 2008
Love is a funny thing
Know wat? If you're someone who always be alert and notice every single thing in your life very clearly , I have something to state out then. Have you ever been cheated or have you ever cheated someone you loved so much and felt regret? What I'm trying to say here is , this kind of problems are basically found on handsomes and pretties. Its like " I'm handsome , I can cheat someone or seduce someone to my bed , the famous 1 night stand or wateva it is"
Mans are like cats, have you ever seen a cat who doesnt eat fish? Mans are all cats , easilly get seduced . I don know what I'm trying to say . Thats the reason why girls always get hurted and it made their self-protections weaken , when their inner-protection is weaken , they're easily be comforted by others. Later , some kind of jerk who loves to act like they're generous and caring gets into their attention , showing just how they're paid respectfully , this kind of people I'm saying here is the cheapest type of human .
They comforts people's girlfriends , they acted like they cared for their feelings , well-respected them , pretending like a good listener , showing them solutions like " break up with him , I'm always here supporting you , dont worry , Im a good listener , if you wanna cry , I can lend u my shoulder and I'll make you smile again or wateva" Cheap peoples like this usually appear around our girlfriends , so , be alert and make sure you're always a good bf . Once you failed , the jerk will try to pull your gf's attention and acting like their back up.
When they're unhappy , they wont tell you , they'll tell that so-called good listener .
Soon , they'll start to compare you and the cheaps. The more wrongs you've done the more they have lack confidence on you or wondering were you the one they're looking for or the cheap person? Ya right , cheaps always say that they don mind it no matter what had happened in their past , bullshits. You know what ? I've done it many times and I'm bored of snatching and acting like a good person , I felt so cheap after doing those snatchings. I dont need to take other people's precious , I can get one my own. But for those sorry asses , grown up ugly and poor , but stills trying to act good , thats the only they can do because they knew it they couldnt get one for their own . Why ugly mans always have a pretty girlfriend? Because they're taking care people's ex, they're afraid of being alone uglily , and they knew it if they dont act good , no one wants them. I write this blog for handsomes , be loyal before you regret and you'll start to think like "Why I lost to someone so ugly , I am more handsome and rich " I can tell you its totally useless , they are good in pretending and tricking , of course you'll lose . You weakens your gf's heart and they are always around her supporting her . You decreases and he increases the opportunity . Ya right , fuk this love world. Love is nothing but tones of bullshits and lies you've made yourself. Be a good bf before its too late.
Thanks for reading shits I wrote here.
Mans are like cats, have you ever seen a cat who doesnt eat fish? Mans are all cats , easilly get seduced . I don know what I'm trying to say . Thats the reason why girls always get hurted and it made their self-protections weaken , when their inner-protection is weaken , they're easily be comforted by others. Later , some kind of jerk who loves to act like they're generous and caring gets into their attention , showing just how they're paid respectfully , this kind of people I'm saying here is the cheapest type of human .
They comforts people's girlfriends , they acted like they cared for their feelings , well-respected them , pretending like a good listener , showing them solutions like " break up with him , I'm always here supporting you , dont worry , Im a good listener , if you wanna cry , I can lend u my shoulder and I'll make you smile again or wateva" Cheap peoples like this usually appear around our girlfriends , so , be alert and make sure you're always a good bf . Once you failed , the jerk will try to pull your gf's attention and acting like their back up.
When they're unhappy , they wont tell you , they'll tell that so-called good listener .
Soon , they'll start to compare you and the cheaps. The more wrongs you've done the more they have lack confidence on you or wondering were you the one they're looking for or the cheap person? Ya right , cheaps always say that they don mind it no matter what had happened in their past , bullshits. You know what ? I've done it many times and I'm bored of snatching and acting like a good person , I felt so cheap after doing those snatchings. I dont need to take other people's precious , I can get one my own. But for those sorry asses , grown up ugly and poor , but stills trying to act good , thats the only they can do because they knew it they couldnt get one for their own . Why ugly mans always have a pretty girlfriend? Because they're taking care people's ex, they're afraid of being alone uglily , and they knew it if they dont act good , no one wants them. I write this blog for handsomes , be loyal before you regret and you'll start to think like "Why I lost to someone so ugly , I am more handsome and rich " I can tell you its totally useless , they are good in pretending and tricking , of course you'll lose . You weakens your gf's heart and they are always around her supporting her . You decreases and he increases the opportunity . Ya right , fuk this love world. Love is nothing but tones of bullshits and lies you've made yourself. Be a good bf before its too late.
Thanks for reading shits I wrote here.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Past Love
I was just wondering why we ended up like this
How could I caused all the hurts to you and making our love fades away
I thought I could be very strong , but sometimes things just arent the way we thought it can be happened. You used to be strong and generous , it started from the bad influences of the way how I've treated you .. I knew I was someone in your heart , someone you used to love to deeply
that you've done silly things to yourself to keep our relationship whole.
You onced told me "If you're happy with me , why you wanna leave me?"
I had lack of confidence and that provokes me everytime when I felt unsecured.
I've grown up , I was once a heartless guy who plays all the girls and dump them .. untill I found you , I never knew how to love someone in a proper way ..
The hurts from the fact that you've left me , now made me grew..
I've learned to cherish , respect , understand , protect , giving faith and love.
Once , I had a chance to do all these to you but I just didnt done it in time..
How I wish I could go back to where we were , all those arguing scenes .. I hope to change all the hurts I've caused to you by replacing hurts with heals.
Now I'm single , I gave myself times .. 3 years to get to my goal ..
I've done all these for the reason that I really love you , I knew humans doesnt need a reason to live on . But the fact is , I really still loves you so much ..
Now , everytime I sees our pictures .. the pains got in my heart again and it needs time to heals it..
How i wish i could celebrate Birthday with you this year .. but I am happy to see your message telling me "thank you" .. just a simple thank you , it heals all the hurts in my heart..
No matter wat happens in future.. I will always standing behind you supporting you all the way through.. Sometimes I read your blog .. you wrote on it that we were unhappy..
But I wasnt the one you needed comforts from anymore..
I felt regret ..
Be happy always My Past Love
How could I caused all the hurts to you and making our love fades away
I thought I could be very strong , but sometimes things just arent the way we thought it can be happened. You used to be strong and generous , it started from the bad influences of the way how I've treated you .. I knew I was someone in your heart , someone you used to love to deeply
that you've done silly things to yourself to keep our relationship whole.
You onced told me "If you're happy with me , why you wanna leave me?"
I had lack of confidence and that provokes me everytime when I felt unsecured.
I've grown up , I was once a heartless guy who plays all the girls and dump them .. untill I found you , I never knew how to love someone in a proper way ..
The hurts from the fact that you've left me , now made me grew..
I've learned to cherish , respect , understand , protect , giving faith and love.
Once , I had a chance to do all these to you but I just didnt done it in time..
How I wish I could go back to where we were , all those arguing scenes .. I hope to change all the hurts I've caused to you by replacing hurts with heals.
Now I'm single , I gave myself times .. 3 years to get to my goal ..
I've done all these for the reason that I really love you , I knew humans doesnt need a reason to live on . But the fact is , I really still loves you so much ..
Now , everytime I sees our pictures .. the pains got in my heart again and it needs time to heals it..
How i wish i could celebrate Birthday with you this year .. but I am happy to see your message telling me "thank you" .. just a simple thank you , it heals all the hurts in my heart..
No matter wat happens in future.. I will always standing behind you supporting you all the way through.. Sometimes I read your blog .. you wrote on it that we were unhappy..
But I wasnt the one you needed comforts from anymore..
I felt regret ..
Be happy always My Past Love
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Avril Lavigne - Innocent
Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Ice cream
You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away
You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away
Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile
Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favourite ice cream
I dont wanna see it melt away
If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me
The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where i know i won't forget
And now, whos to say, well be ok
We will make it through the night
Dont wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile
Cause were the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice cream
I dont want to see it melts away
If you walk out now
I dont know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me
I want you to stay here with me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away
You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels like a world away
Who's to say, we'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile
Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favourite ice cream
I dont wanna see it melt away
If you walk out now
I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me
The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where i know i won't forget
And now, whos to say, well be ok
We will make it through the night
Dont wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile
Cause were the same
And I know that we'll never change
look I bought your favorite ice cream
I dont want to see it melts away
If you walk out now
I dont know if we could be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me
I want you to stay here with me
Monday, September 22, 2008
Reckless life
guess wat? stupid friendster's blog accured some kind of stupid error.
have to create a blog here. damn it.
life is really confusing. Why there's someone who's sad but doesnt wanna admit it infront of others? Why someone like this likes to hide the truth from people and even themselves?
Recklessness meaning of life
The most important thing in our life wasnt someone we loved the most , but time.
I don wan to waste my time anymore.. wat is supposed to let go , I should.
Time is always running .. forget bout the sad , if you couldnt do it. Just put aside the feelings .. I lost someone I loved the most and I thought I've lost everything in my life.
Ya right , it hurts me real bad , tears flew and heart broken.
Tats my retribution , and returns I get from her.
I will cherish and use my times properly ..
money is wat I wanna get now ..
I wanna drive my dream car , open own shop , I don need a gf now or maybe I don even need a wife . But tats the fact tat everybody wants something they couldnt get .. I do admit Im still sad , but tears isnit going to flew from my eyes anymore. $$$$ first .
I ma going to say the same damn thing , if ever the time could turn back , I will change before you feel disappointed again . I am sorry and please be happy . I know you wanna be happy .. ur wish will come true one day. I hope mines too.
You dint love wrong me , it was my problem so you can just put the blame on me.
I dont wanna rely on my dad anymore , I don wanna use his money , I wanna earn mines.
Be happy while watch me reaching my cashs.
have to create a blog here. damn it.
life is really confusing. Why there's someone who's sad but doesnt wanna admit it infront of others? Why someone like this likes to hide the truth from people and even themselves?
Recklessness meaning of life
The most important thing in our life wasnt someone we loved the most , but time.
I don wan to waste my time anymore.. wat is supposed to let go , I should.
Time is always running .. forget bout the sad , if you couldnt do it. Just put aside the feelings .. I lost someone I loved the most and I thought I've lost everything in my life.
Ya right , it hurts me real bad , tears flew and heart broken.
Tats my retribution , and returns I get from her.
I will cherish and use my times properly ..
money is wat I wanna get now ..
I wanna drive my dream car , open own shop , I don need a gf now or maybe I don even need a wife . But tats the fact tat everybody wants something they couldnt get .. I do admit Im still sad , but tears isnit going to flew from my eyes anymore. $$$$ first .
I ma going to say the same damn thing , if ever the time could turn back , I will change before you feel disappointed again . I am sorry and please be happy . I know you wanna be happy .. ur wish will come true one day. I hope mines too.
You dint love wrong me , it was my problem so you can just put the blame on me.
I dont wanna rely on my dad anymore , I don wanna use his money , I wanna earn mines.
Be happy while watch me reaching my cashs.
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